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Work actually wasn't too bad today. It went by relatively quickly, even though this was the longest shift I've worked so far. I took a half hour lunch though, so that could be why. Didn't have too many rude customers, and I even got to train a new girl. I've been there for two weeks and I'm already a trainer. Yay me! But yeah, she seems really sweet 'n I felt so bad for her because some rude ass old man went off on her for something that wasn't her fault at all. It states clearly in the guidelines for Kmart that you can't use your Employee Discount with a Credit Card but some people are fucking morons.

After lunch (when I went outside with wet hair and no coat to smoke) I started to feel like shit. My throat got really dry and I kept having to run over to the KCafe to get a drink of water, I could barely talk - and when I did, it was painful. I'm thinking my sister gave me her cold (she's been talking like a man for days) but that coupled with my going outside with wet hair, and smoking more often than before because I bought short cigarettes.. is definitely taking a toll on me. I got home and realized I had a stuffy nose as well, and now I just feel crappy all over. It makes me mad 'cause I was just thinking of how cute it'd be if I were sick and Jeremy came over to comfort me and make me feel better. Now he has the chance, but I won't see him 'til tomorrow after work. -Sigh.-

God, I'm the biggest baby when I'm sick. lol. He just signed on and I'm like "Hunny, I'm sick and I miss you!" Waah. lol. It's kind of funny how childish and clingy I get when I don't feel well. And now he's telling me that he doesn't know about Tuesday either. Maybe I'm too attached, but this really sucks. I feel awful and all I want to do is snuggle up with my boyfriend. But I can't because his stupid friend is back from the stupid air force and wants to hang out and spend stupid time with him. Ugh. I should've went after a guy who had no friends or family, lol. I'm such a baby. Blah. I'm trying not to be a bitch to him but it sucks that his parents are always getting in the way of us hanging out (even though he's almost twenty years old) and now his friend is. Well.. I can understand his friend getting in the way, he's in the airfoce and Jeremy never sees him.. but damnit, I don't wanna wait 'til Thursday. =( I know he feels bad though, he's telling me how much he wants to hang out with me too. Aw, he's suggesting we both hang out with him. But.. I don't wanna get in the way. He's gonna talk to his friend. ..Aw. I have the best boyfriend ever. ^_^

Doctor Emmett Brown

You are a brilliant genius. You can come up with amazing inventions from a machine feeds your dog to a time machine made from a DeLorean. Just be careful hanging clocks in your bathroom.

I keep a journal, and start challenges every couple of weeks. For example, I had my Birthday Challenge, which was the three weeks prior to my birthday. It is like a goal point. Then I write my goals for those weeks, and i weigh myself in every monday to see how I did. I also make workout goals, and this challenge (starting today) I am planning specifically what workouts I am doing each day.

What I have fell in love with and plan on doing a lot this week, is the free Jillian Michaels workouts On Demand on Exercise TV. They kick my butt! I'm drenched in sweat after, and I love it.

The last couple of weeks I have not been doing very well, and have actually gained some weight :( But I am never going to give up until I am happy with my body.

Ok. I did terribly on this week's challenge, but in my defense, I had company at my house until yesterday! Bah! I seriously need a do-over.

In other news, I have started South Beach phase 2. I can't do South Beach phase 1 because I'm nursing, and it's too restrictive. Basically, I can have lean protein, all the veggies I want (with a few exceptions like carrots) , 1 serving of fruit a day (with a few exceptions), 1 serving of whole grains (initially), water, coffee, tea, and 1 serving of red wine. If you want to know more about it, click here.I don't usually go for these type of diets, but I go back to work in a month and need to fit in my clothes, and I am in a wedding on 5/24, and the dress is a dang sausage casing....I basically can't have it suddenly be May and need to lose 15 lbs in 3 weeks, you know? So...I started yesterday.

In a way, one of the benefits of a structured diet, is that if you tell the important people in your life about the diet, they know the rules, and hopefully they won't sabotage you. So far, I've told my husband, my inlaws, and my parents about it, so they all know what I can eat and what I won't, which is good. In my case, it also initially eliminates a lot of my temptation foods, like pizza, fries, and burgers...(sweets have never been my thing.), which will definitely be helpful. I'll keep you guys posted!!!